OK...well..bye

You don't often get a neat ending in real life, not like in the movies. In real life, things drag on in an indeterminate way, characters missing their exits, crashing into each other and delivering lines that don't seem to relate to what went before.

I've just figured out that it's all over for me and this blog, and the groovy thing is, that if I end it now then the ending will be neat.

The thing is - I've just skimmed through all my posts since 2004 and I've changed. Dontcha hate that? When people claim they've changed and as far as you can see they're still the sad loser they always were, except now they've gone all smug? I haven't changed that much, I'm still desperate, confused and floating on a big raft of issues. Its just that I've lost my urge to have drunken sex with horrible men. It nearly kills me to admit what many have been whispering for years - I was only looking for love. You were right, you smart-arse wankers.

When I first made up my byline: "Sex Addiction Recovery Journal. Or if that doesn't work...Sex Addiction Titillation Tool" I was taking the piss. But with fabulous Hollywood neatness, I did recover although I didn't mean to. Thanks in part to all your virtual ears which I always assumed were sympathetic. And thanks as well to D who grew, Ugly Duckling style, from a horrible man into a top-grade ordinary bloke manly man with a big loyal fierce steady heart.

So its goodbye to Cheap Thrills, but hey, I'm only moving to a new blog round the corner. Just as soon as I figure out what to call it and what it should be about I'll let you know. I only hope it turns out I have other topics of conversation, now that my talent for inappropriate sex is fading.

Thank you so much for reading, you will never understand how much it has meant to me. I am sad to go. This blog will always have a special place in my heart as The First Thing I Ever Wrote. And darlings I will always remember you: My First Ever Readers.

love

Dolores